When I first started my blog I needed a way to express my feelings while I was grieving Erica. My hope now is that others can read my posts and realize that their not alone in the feelings they have over losing a loved one. With that in mind, I'm going to be honest. Recently I find myself having resentful feelings when I hear other women talk about their sisters. Hopefully in time these resentful feelings will go away. Right now all I can think about is all the things Erica and I will never do together. When I see sisters laughing together those resentful feelings swell inside me. I'm not proud of these feelings but they're there. So, if through the grieving process you find yourself having resentful feelings for your situation, just know you're not alone. Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Resentful Feelings
When I first started my blog I needed a way to express my feelings while I was grieving Erica. My hope now is that others can read my posts and realize that their not alone in the feelings they have over losing a loved one. With that in mind, I'm going to be honest. Recently I find myself having resentful feelings when I hear other women talk about their sisters. Hopefully in time these resentful feelings will go away. Right now all I can think about is all the things Erica and I will never do together. When I see sisters laughing together those resentful feelings swell inside me. I'm not proud of these feelings but they're there. So, if through the grieving process you find yourself having resentful feelings for your situation, just know you're not alone. 
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No Resentment, just misunderstood anger!!!
ReplyDeleteI have not had a jealous or resentful moment, but I just don't understand why this would happen to a wonderful sister that had two children that she adored and loved so much. There are millions of people that beat and abuse there children and have never showed the love that Erica did for both of her girls. Everyday since Erica passed away I have felt that I should be the one gone that way she could still be here with her children. This misunderstood anger has dominated my day to day life ever since Erica passed on.
Love you Erica and I miss you everyday.
Yes Stephen, I understand this anger. I struggled with the same feeling. We would love to spare our nieces from the hurt, anger, and a life without their mother. It doesn't seem fair that their mother is gone. My anger has diminished over time and I hope yours does too.
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