Friday, June 24, 2011

What Shall It Be?

I've carried this poem around since I was a freshman in high school.  I found it when I was doing a project in english class.  So I thought my blog is the perfect place to share it.  Enjoy!

What Shall It Be?
Author Anonymous
Gold from the Oxus Treasure
Out of this life I shall never take
Things of silver and gold I make.
All that I cherish and hoard away,
After I leave, on this earth must stay.

Though I have toiled for a painting rare
To hang on the wall, I must leave it there.
Though I call it mine, and boast its worth,
I must give it up when I leave this earth.

All that I gather, and all that I keep,
I must leave behind when I fall asleep.
And I often wonder what I shall own
In that other life when I pass alone.
What shall they find, and what shall they see,
In the soul that answers the call for me?
Shall the Great Judge learn, when my task is through,
That my spirit has gathered some riches, too?

Or shall at last it be mine to find
That all I'd worked for I'd left behind?

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Warped Logic

warped tree and orange mushroomsphoto © 2007 Rupert Ganzer | more info (via: Wylio)
It has been suggested to me that God took Erica to teach me a lesson.  I find this to be a warped sense of logic.  Why would God punish my Sister and her Daughters to teach me a lesson.  This suggestion doesn't make sense to me.  I know this tragedy has made me reevalute the direction of my life.  However, I don't believe my life was the reason God called my Sister home.  This suggestion is truly one of the worst things you could say to a grieving person.  You might as well come out and say it's your fault, you sinner.  So the next time you're visiting with someone who is grieving keep your warped sentiments to yourself.     

Quote: If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking.  ~Buddhist Saying

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

105 Days

Sunsetphoto © 2008 Brian Forbes | more info (via: Wylio)

As the sun gets ready to set on another Tuesday, I'm reflecting back on the last 105 days.  My journey of grieving Erica has come a long way.  I can tell you it does get better, I don't think it will ever be easy, but my grief is more manageable.  I'm still struggling with a couple of things that I can't change, but I have faith that God has a plan and it's not up to me.  Each day a little more healing occurs and for that I'm grateful.

Quote: Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it.  ~Tori Amos

Monday, June 20, 2011

Keeping the Peace

peace and daisyphoto © 2007 thegoinggreenboutique | more info Most of my life I've been the one in the middle.  I may be the oldest sibling but it seems I'm always the one my family likes to unburden their problems to.  Well, keeping the peace is not an easy job.  There is no pay involved and it really doesn't feel like charity work.  The problems don't go away once you share them with me, but my ability to remain unbiased gets clouded.  I look and see situations from a position that may be none of my business.  I feel like some relationships with my family have been altered due to some burdens that I have been given.  I really don't remember applying for this job of keeping the peace.  Therefore I choose to learn from past mistakes and I am submitting my resignation.  Please give your burdens to the Lord so he may provide you with the guidance you seek.