Another Tuesday

It has been 31 Tuesdays since Erica passed away.  Each Tuesday comes with different thoughts, memories, and challenges concerning Erica's death.  I have a bad habit of going shopping on Tuesday after work.  Typically I go to Hobby Lobby.  The day Erica died, I did just that.  I got off work and went to Hobby Lobby and then the grocery store.  Several times over the last six months on a Tuesday, I found myself doing the very same thing.  So today I came straight home.  I don't like that a pattern has emerged in my life, especially one with a sad association.  The plan is to change things up a bit.  I know I won't stop shopping but I'm going to stop being so predictable.

Making Changes

photo © 2011 Visual Artist Frank Bonilla | more info (via: Wylio)Losing Erica forced me to look at my life from a different perspective.  I've been content for a very long time to live an isolated life.  There are a ton of things I feel I should do but I always let someone dissuade me from taking action.  My life has become stagnant because I'm not serving my purpose.  Therefore making changes is the only way to get a different result.  There is always that delicate balance of doing what you feel is right and keeping the ones around you happy.  It has been too easy to lose sight of my purpose in order to keep others happy.  That stops today. We have one life and if we want to change things we have to start with ourselves.  So, I'm making changes.