While shopping today it was hard to hold back the tears. For this story you need to know the history behind it. Last Christmas something told me I needed to find something special for Erica. I worried more about what I should buy her than usual. I wanted her gift to show I put some thought into it. I finally found a couple of things I thought she would like at this store called Belk. When shopping today I found myself in the same department I bought Erica's gift. The idea that I won't be buying her a gift this year entered my mind. Then the shopping tears emerged. I'm finding the ideas of the impeding holiday season to be depressing. I'm sure there are many more shopping tears to come.