Today is the two year anniversary of my sister's death. I still think of her daily and continue to picture her in my mind so I don't forget the many precious memories. Time has helped and the initial shock is gone, but there are still days that it doesn't feel real. The idea that someone you love is here one minute and gone the next, was a hard life lesson to learn. I still haven't deleted Erica's cell phone number from mine. I decided it was something I wanted to keep in my life. The idea of erasing/deleting her name from my phone was just not an option for me. There are still tears shed and times I wish I could pick up the phone and hear her voice or send a text. I still have a hard time hearing other women talk about doing things with their sisters, it's a reminder of the loss in my life. Grieving Erica will be a lifelong journey. Two years have passed and progress made, but I still face the rest of my life without my sister.Friday, March 8, 2013
Two Years
Today is the two year anniversary of my sister's death. I still think of her daily and continue to picture her in my mind so I don't forget the many precious memories. Time has helped and the initial shock is gone, but there are still days that it doesn't feel real. The idea that someone you love is here one minute and gone the next, was a hard life lesson to learn. I still haven't deleted Erica's cell phone number from mine. I decided it was something I wanted to keep in my life. The idea of erasing/deleting her name from my phone was just not an option for me. There are still tears shed and times I wish I could pick up the phone and hear her voice or send a text. I still have a hard time hearing other women talk about doing things with their sisters, it's a reminder of the loss in my life. Grieving Erica will be a lifelong journey. Two years have passed and progress made, but I still face the rest of my life without my sister.
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Andrea, I popped over here after I saw your card on the Bugaboo challenge. I read through many of your posts documenting your journey through the grief of losing your sister. I am so sorry for your loss. Your blog is beautifully written. Your feelings, your honesty and openness throughout this journey is both beautiful and heartbreaking. I lost my older sister when we were kids so many of the experiences and feelings you've documented throughout your grieving process are familiar to me (I can still relate to the feelings of guilt (why her and not me?) and the life long feeling of not having those "sister moments") You are paying a beautiful tribute to your sister's life. Thank you for your beautiful writing and the reminder that we all need to cherish the time we have here.
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