Monday, September 10, 2012

If I Had Only Known

Erica & Andrea, 1981
Each day I think about my sister. The passing of time has not taken that away. It has been a year and a half since Erica passed away. My heart still drops and tears well up in my eyes when I think back to the day she died. The thought comes to my mind....."if I had only known," there would be many things I would have done differently, if I had only known. I would have called, sent a text or an email, a little more often, if I had only known. I would have made sure I said what needed to be said, if I had only known. In my mind we were going to grow old and get gray hair and have plenty of time to do sisterly things together but, I was wrong. Now, each day I live with that regret and the thoughts of what should have been.   

1 comment:

  1. Today is another day that I thought all day -- in one month will be Erica's birthday, Saturday it was 18 months since Erica died -- everyday has another hole in my heart for what we are missing. Life is short and we do not know what it will bring -- so we need to enjoy our loved ones as much as possible. Erica is missed and our family struggles to find a new normal.