photo © 2008 Mary | more info (via: Wylio)Many different feelings and emotions have been felt over the last two months. Several of these emotions were new to me. I had days that I didn't know how I would get through, but I did. By taking one day at a time my life is starting to resemble something I recognize. However, when I stop to think about what two months have felt like I realize all the days, months, and years to come that we will be without Erica. This makes me sad.
This weekend I experienced a "sneak attack," I was in the car waiting on my husband when a song on the radio brought back a flood of feelings and memories. That overwhelming feeling came over me. It was a hard weekend. With it being Mother's Day yesterday and the two month mark of our loss my heart was heavy with grief. My feelings are more in control on a daily basis, but I think it is safe to say that you don't just wake up one day and all of the sudden feel better. It is a gradual process and by the way, I still haven't pushed delete.