photo © 2007 Scott Wilson | more info (via: Wylio)My recovery grieving Erica has come along way. It has been 74 days since she passed away. I can now tell the story without breaking down into tears. I can think about memories and my mascara doesn't run. But last night my husband and I were driving to go eat and he said "since Erica's death.....," and my heart just sank. That overwhelming feeling returned. It is still surreal to hear this come from someone else. To hear her name and the word "death" just doesn't sound right, it wasn't supposed to be this way. Half of me still just doesn't want to believe it. So if you find yourself thinking that it is still surreal, you're not alone.